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Name: Alec
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Metro: Montville Township
Birthday: 7/1/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: Field Corps, computer, just about everything band, golf, PS2, DDR, etc. I'm getting into writing a little too.
Expertise: Gettin' good at DDR.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  teh1337357
Member Since:
11/24/2003
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| I'll keep this short since I have to go to work soon. But I ask anyone who reads this to pray for those affected by this morning's tragedy at Virginia Tech. 32 are dead. Twenty-something are wounded. The gunman is dead. It's a scary thing to see happen and think that it could have happened anywhere. Again, I ask everyone to pray for those affected. | | |
| So... the girl I ask to prom, Katie from work... she says yes... her dad says no... which means no for that.
The girl I had as a possible backup date, Michelle... not happening because she got a date because she thought I definitely had one.
Everyone suggests for me to just go single.
You see, that wouldn't be so much of a problem if it wasn't for something I promised myself earlier on in high school. Basically, I promised to myself that no matter how bad I was with girls throughout high school, I would get myself a prom date who I actually liked as more than just a friend. Maybe not quite a girlfriend, but a girl who I really liked. That's exactly why I hate this situation so much. Of all the things I've promised myself over the years and not gone through on, this is the one that's really going to bug me. There's one more girl at work that I think could potentially meet what I promised myself, so I'm giving that a shot. Name will not be disclosed so you people don't bug me about who it is. Marissa, in particular since you seem to think everyone at Shoprite is ugly or whatever you said. I'm not mad at you, but if that's what you think about them, I'd rather not share it. If that doesn't work out, I'll consider whether or not to go to prom at all. Whatever. Senior year has been a mix of a nightmare and the best time of my life. In the case of the prom and girls, a complete and total nightmare. No question about it.
The thing that really bugs me is I've never been able to really take a girl out at all. I mean, I went to the movies with a few people. I talked and watched movies with Katie. That's not it though. I'm talking, spending an entire night or even day together. Having a plan of an amazing day/night. Enjoying each other's company. I'm talking like... go to the city. Have lunch/dinner at a decent restaurant. Take a nice walk through a nice part. Go see some of the attractions. See a show. Shop a little bit. Spend some time at one of those really scenic places. Be able to talk the entire time. Completely on me. No money whatsoever on their part other than shopping money. That type of stuff. I've been dreaming of doing that with someone, but it just never worked. EVER. All throughout being with Hina... I was either paying off something, sick, busy, or something that'd hinder it. Granted, I'm glad I didn't waste the money, but still. With Katie, didn't even have the time because her dad apparently doesn't want her dating or anything. Other girls were won over by other guys. Other girls didn't even like me whatsoever. The way I feel is that if I could do that, it'd be the most accurate representation of who I am. Oh well. I guess it's NOT going to happen until at least after college. | | |
| Virginia Tech was awesome. Vermont was absolutely amazing. 8 inches of fresh powder this morning. 'Nuff said. | | |
| Well, there might be hope for me with girls after all. I'm apparently pretty attractive to girls outside of Montville. | | |
| Why can't friends just be friends? There's no need for drama, exaggeration, and assumption. I see no need in it, for one. But who does see the need in it? We've had so much petty drama throughout senior year. It's ridiculous. Jealousy, misunderstanding, rumors, all that bullshit. I mean, I know why everyone's so stressed out. It's clear when we're going through senior year. We're worrying about getting our college apps in at first. Finalizing our choices of where to apply. Then we're worrying about the day that we hear back from colleges. Then we're worrying which one of our acceptances we're going to. Then we're worrying about prom and getting the right housing at our colleges. Then we're worrying about what to bring to college. I understand the stress, but the stress is no reason to cause jealousy, misunderstanding, rumors, and all that bullshit. So why must it be this way? Why? I don't get it. Someone please explain why we all need to be like this.
Let's look at a few of the roots, I guess. First of all, we're very cliquey, even inside our own group of friends. We have the Cori, Alicia, and Katie. Then we have the Marissa, Frank, Michelle, and myself. Taylor fits into that one a good amount of the time too. Jacobchick is somewhere off on his own usually. Here's my first problem with that. Whenever there's a legit issue, people take sides according to the sub-group they're in, for the most part. That causes tension between everyone. Second problem. If there's something going around in my sub-group that the Cori, Alicia, and Katie sub-group doesn't hear, there's an issue because Cori, Alicia, Katie, or a combination of them didn't hear and wants to know. Yet, the Cori, Alicia, and Katie sub-group has memo_central where we don't hear anything from. There's another root of us fighting at times, no? Do NOT even debate this one. There have been numerous times where this has happened. Oh, and the whole thing about me going places with Grace and/or Jenn... Hell would freeze over before Jenn would even consider me more than a good friend. And I'm personally happy with being a good friend of hers. So cut the shit whoever keeps talking about that. Just while we were on that subject.
What else? I really don't even want to say more. I've covered enough of the problem. We all assume completely irrelevant things from what other people say. We all spread rumors for some retarded reason. We all misunderstand each other because no one bothers reading everything and only reads the parts they want (I'm willing to bet that happens for this post). We all side with one person or another. We keep things that we don't need to from each other. It all causes unnecessary tension and it's just retarded. We all just need to cut this shit and be real friends again. Cut the fuckin' drama because all this drama lately is all for absolutely retarded reasons. We're all guilty of all of this, some more than others. Myself included. If anyone doesn't agree with this, bring it up with me and I'll show you everything you need to, because I'm 100% positive on everything I said. And if anyone thinks this was some vicious attack at them, don't even bother talking to me until you get some sense because you're probably the most guilty of this crap out of anyone if you think that bullshit.
And you guys can trust me, I'm actually pretty happy now. I'm just kinda sick of all this crap lately. "I think ____ doesn't like me because of _____" You think that, you don't know that. Fix the problem yourself with that person instead of complaining about it and making it seem worse. I've heard that more times than I can stand, from the same people every time.
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